Something you miss

I miss people. There are some people from my past that I really miss. They were big in my life at some point and now they are not. And while I understand it, I do miss them. Some people disappoint you greatly in life and sometimes you have to make a decision about them. Are they worth keeping in your life? Are they adding or taking away from your happiness and your well being? Sometimes its not even your choice, life takes people out of your life. Its funny, writing this I am thinking about a lot of different people but one is kinda odd. There was a girl I knew in elementary school, I couldn't tell you what grade it was. But she was my friend. She lived on my street, at the other end. And she was weird. I was weird too. And I rarely made friends but she and I became friends. I remember her taking me to church with her one day. I wish I could remember what kind of church it was but I believe that was the one and only time I was ever happy in church. She had these church dollars that she had been saving up for their church store and she bought me a toy while we were there. I cant remember her name and she only lived there for a little while but I miss her.

I also miss working. I love being a stay at home mom and I know how hard Brandon works to allow me to do that. I just also miss work. I miss having somewhere to be that isn't about my kids. And I don't mean that harshly or snotty, work was just always really my identity. Now my identity is so wrapped up in my kids that sometimes I forget who I am. 

And right now I miss Brandon. He is so far away working so hard to support our little family. He is a great man and I love him. I wish he didn't have to go do things like this but I love that he will. I know its hard on him, as well as me and the kids, but he does it for good reasons. He takes such good care of us all. 

A problem you have or have had

I am determined to finish this challenge. It has taken me much more then 30 days though. I was doing really great then we went to Mexico then Brandon left and it just seems hard to fit it in now. Dang it.

So, a problem I have. Lemme count the ways... I have it narrowed down to 2. Do I go serious or petty? Maybe I will just let you know them both. I owe you after being so bad finishing this challenge, right?

My serious one is awkwardness. I don't know what is wrong with me. I get around people and I lose brain function. I have been called shy so many times and lemme tell you, that isn't my problem. If I have something to say I will say it. (Ask the karate dad.) No issues. My problem is more that my mind will not come up with a single thing to say. I will sit there awkwardly and try to come up with something and it just doesn't happen. Then I get more awkward because I have made it awkward and I cant figure out how to fix it. Its not an intimidation thing, I'm not worried what someone is going to think about what I say. I am just missing a function that works for social situations. I can get up in front of a whole group of people and give a whole schpeel, its not a problem for me. Because you work it out ahead of time. Hell, I sold Slumber Parties and I was really good at it. I could tell you everything about every item and why you needed it and so many cool things. But I couldn't talk to you about anything normal, my idiot brain would just freeze right up. I'm awesome professionally. Personally, I suck. 

My other problem, and to me this is a HUGE problem! My stupid straight straight straight eyelashes!! UGH! I can not do ANYTHING to curl them. Makes me sick. I spend so much time with stupid eyelash curlers. They do so little but the little bit it helps actually seems worth it. I've had my eyelashes permed to try to help and it just did nothing. The night before my wedding I laid there, with this horrible awful spray on tan, and just thought I don't care what else happens, just let my eyelashes CURL! Of course it didn't happen. 

$1,000,000 to spend

If I had a million dollars, what would I do with it? In really real life, I would pay off the house and then stash it away for college for my kids and other life things. I mean, really a million dollars isn't SO much money.

But for the sake of this blog I am going to write as though I have to spend it or lose it. 

I would still start with paying off the house. I dream of living mortgage free. It would be the biggest payoff long term. Having that much extra each month would be amazing. 

Next I would buy a big ass boat. I really like boats. I would also have to get Brandon a truck to pull it with. A big ass truck, obviously. =)

I would go to Italy. I really want to go to Italy. 

I would buy a vacation house somewhere. Brandon and I are always discussing where our first vacation house is going to be. It will be on a beach somewhere. I'm pretty sure I wont be able to pay it off with everything else I'm buying but pay a chunk toward it then make payments. With no house payment, its totally do-able.

I would also make a big donation. It would take some soul searching to decide where. I know Make-A-Wish would get a good check. Have to figure out where else to send it. I want my imaginary money to go somewhere that helps and doesn't get used up in 'administration'. I love Make-A-Wish because you can SEE that they are doing so much good.

So thats it I guess. I feel like it is still a weak list even though its imaginary. I'm a simple girl, I suppose.  

A person that fascinates me

Alright, I'm a few days behind. In part because things have been hectic and I needed to catch up. Also in part because I have zero idea what to write. 

I am stumped. Seriously. I just wrote a whole stupid post and deleted it because it was so NOT fascinating. I've had tough days but this one is throwing me. 

I don't know!!  So I suck today. I am not doing it. I thought about just skipping it and pretending I forgot but I'll be honest. I'm just not going to do it! Take that! 

My favorite movie and what its about.

This is a good one! I love movies. I love lots and lots of movies. And while my fav book list is pretty dark my movie list tends to be really goofy. I love a silly movie. I honestly don't think I have a favorite. I could go on forever about how many are my favorites. So I'm just going to pick one. The one I picked to put here really isn't a movie, its a web thingy. I don't even know. Its only 45 minutes long. But since I am wearing a tee shirt from it right now, I'm rolling with it. (cuz I'm cool like that...)

Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog.

I don't know what it is about this show but I ADORE it. Neil Patrick Harris, Nathan Fillion and Felicia Day. I love them all. I will watch every one of them in anything they are in and they are all together here. And they all go together quite nicely.

So... The show was written and made during the writers strike awhile back by Joss Whedon (who I am a huge nerd for). It is about Dr. Horrible, played by NPH. He is this lovable villain who has 2 main goals. Join the Evil League of Evil and get the girl. The girl is Penny, Felicia Day, a sweet adorable girl who volunteers for the homeless shelter. Dr. Horrible obviously needs a hero to foil his attempts to take over the world. His nemesis is Captain Hammer, corporate tool. Played by Nathan Fillion. (if your wondering, his fists are NOT the hammer...) Our house is divided on Captain Hammer. I personally LOVE him. (the tee shirt I am wearing right now has him on it and its my fav tee shirt I own.)  

Did I mention the singing?? They totally sing ALL the time! How much cooler could it get??

Like I said, the show is not very long so I cant say very much about it or I will give it all away. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it! Its on netflix and youtube. Its a big hit with my whole family. Chelsea especially enjoys it. She wants to watch it all the time AND asks to listen to the soundtrack. She knows all the songs and can sit and recite the movie to you. Its pretty rockin' adorable! 

Its not about making money, its about taking money. Destroying the status quo because the status is not quo. The world is a mess and I just need to rule it.

5 celebrities I find attractive

Mark Paul Gosselaar. Helloooo Zack Morris! 

Zac Efron. Yes he is younger then me.
I have come to terms with it. But he got me
with 17 again. Something about him playing
a young Mathew Perry.

Leo Dicaprio. Mmmm! The movie I have seen
most in the theaters, to this day, is Titanic.
I think it was watching Blood Diamonds that
I realized Jack had grown up. And he did a fine job of it!

Joseph-Gordon Levitt. 

My list would, of course, not be complete
without Zach Braff!

Anyone else notice that the name Zach comes up a lot in this post?? Guess which one my kid is named after...

How have I changed in the last 2 years

Ok, I'm back from vacation and I'm back to my bloggity blog challenge. Today is how I have changed in the last 2 years.

I'm not sure where to go with this. I don't think I have hardly changed at all in the last 2 years. 

The thing I think of first is friendships. I don't have some of the friends I used to have anymore. I have some I didn't have before. Some I don't know how I lived without. La Dayna and I have become really close in the last couple of years. I cant imagine not having her in my life now. She is pretty fantasticly awesome. 

I'm not sure what else I have. I've turned 30 but that wasn't a big deal. I don't feel like it changed me. 

I sleep better. I think because I have to go to bed earlier to get up to get Zach to school. I'm not a morning person at all, I haven't ever been in my life. But if I want school to be important for my kids it has to be important to me so up I get!

I've become a vegetarian. Well, I have gone back to being a vegetarian. I'm much more focused on it then I was before though. I am informed and really know why I'm doing it now. And I'm not embarrassed about now, its a choice I made for me. Before I always felt like I had to explain myself and I felt like the weirdo. Now I try not to make it a big deal, I just carry on. Usually I don't even think about it. 

I cant think of anything else. I know for the next week I'm going to think of things that I should have put here but didn't.