December 14th

Once upon a time there was a little girl who moved into a new neighborhood. She was very young, not even in kindergarten. One day another little girl walked past her yard while she was outside playing. The first little girl told the second little girl that she should come over and play with her. Eventually the second little girl did. Those 2 little girls became very close friends. They knew all of each others secrets and had lots of secrets between them. They were more then friends, they were sisters. And they stayed like that for a long time. Even though there were periods of time that they couldn't stand each other they always loved each other. Then when they were big girls the second little girl grew up faster. She got married, moved away and had babies while the other took a different path. They grew apart and couldn't figure out how to fix it. Eventually the first little girl also got married and had babies. And the second little girl moved back. They thought that maybe they could get things back to the way they were once. But its a lot harder to be that close to someone when you are a grownup girl then when you are a little girl. The first girl tried hard, she missed her friend so much. But it didn't work out. The second girl broke the firsts girls trust and by doing that she broke her heart. The first girl doesn't know anything about the second girls life anymore and sometimes that's hard. Most of the time the first girl is ok and doesn't think about it too much. But December 14th happens to be the second girls birthday and every year on that day the first girl spends a lot of time thinking about the second girl. 

Happy Birthday to the second girl, I hope you are doing ok. Love, the first girl. 

Excitement

I couldn't sleep last night. Somehow between getting my kids in bed and getting myself into bed I realized how close we are to Christmas. I've been counting down with my kids but its just been a number. Then at some point I thought 'In 2 weeks I will be riding teacups with my family' and it all became so real. I have been excited anyway for Christmas. I think I have some good gifts to give out and I cant wait to see peoples reactions. I love Christmas, I always have. I love putting thought into what I am getting everyone. Its not random for me, its a process. I start early so I can get the right thing for everyone that shows I was thinking of THEM. And while I haven't had much of a budget this year, I think I have done pretty dang great.

This year my kids are getting the best gift I could imagine. MAGIC. Since Zach was a toddler loving Mickey Mouse Clubhouse I have dreamed of taking him to Disneyland. And then I got a princess, every princess needs to go to Disneyland. Every year Brandon and I saw maybe we can save enough to go next year.... Next year always comes and goes and we cant make it work. I really didn't think we would ever be able to take them. At least not when they were young enough for it to be so magical. This year my sweet amazing husband found a way to make it happen for us. It was a big sacrifice for him, it meant him missing a lot of time and being homesick and it was hard. On him and us. But being such a good dad and husband he did it. Now I am 2 weeks away from something I was afraid wouldn't happen. I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about it.  I cant even find the words to explain how excited I am for this.

I'm going to stop now because I am so rambley about it. I just cant believe it is happening and is coming up so soon. I am going to go back to imagining their reaction when they open this gift in 11 days!!