To be honest, I am kinda bat-shit crazy sometimes. My feelings get hurt WAY too easily and when it happens he is the one who hears about it. Last night I had a bit of a melt down over something that isn't his fault but he gets the brunt of my upset-ness about it. I cant talk to the person who causes this feeling in me and to be honest it wears me down. I don't understand the problem and I spend a LOT of time obsessing over it. It has been affecting my mood quite a bit. But when I freak out on Brandon he sits and listens and holds me and tells me I'm crazy but its ok. Sometimes its exactly what you need to move on from a toxic situation. I am able to realize that it still has to be resolved but I cant do that until the other person is ready. It still hurts and still sucks but I can spend less time stressing about it.
Thank you Brandon. I really do love you so very much. I hope you know that even when I am so out of my mind that I cant see straight. I am so lucky to have you. <3 <3